I don’t know what to write about today. I committed to writing every day, so here I am. I’ll not publish till tonight, so something may arise between now and then. Today is a gorgeous day. Mid 60’s and lots of sunshine. It’s one of those days when the possibilities are endless. I could spend the day writing and painting or finish reading my current read, Anam Cara. Endless possibilities for me equals being overwhelmed and thus a freeze response. I usually spend the day restless and have done nothing but scroll on my phone. This is why, even though I do not feel compelled to write about anything in particular, I am here writing. I find the best way to move through the freeze response is to choose to do something and then do it.

One of the things I have realized lately is that my whole life feels like a freeze response. I love life so much; there is so much beauty and possibility that I do not know how to choose. Maybe I don’t need to choose. I suspect I might find that as I choose something and do it, and I have more time to do everything I want. I will say wanting to do things does not always include things I like. I want to clean up my house after three kids and their friends ravage it. I don’t necessarily enjoy it, but I love the outcome-clearing of mind and a lighter feeling.