I feel down a rabbit hole. I wasn’t intending to, but one thing led to another, which led to a book, which led to a podcast, which led to a report. Here I am weeks later, falling through on my promise to write every day. I didn’t even write much in my personal journal.

I know enough to know, that I don’t know. I know that something is going on. Something we’ve been trained to believe isn’t real is. There are a lot of threads I can see patterns weaving through, but I don’t know which threads lead to truth. I don’t even know which truth I’m looking for.

I’ve been researching UFOs, parapsychology, dabbled a bit into psychedelics. I’m not an expert researcher in anything. I’m not one to remember facts. I do see these overarching patterns. I was exploring the intersection of psychedelics, the government, and the church, when I heard Ian Carroll on Joe Rogan say there was a convergence happening of three things, UFOs, the church, and the government. I am writing church, but I think it is more specific to the Vatican.

I can’t write cohesively about this. I want to say it all is in my head like a spiderweb, but it’s not in my head, it’s like a net of information outside of me, but not integrated into my surroundings. I’m not sure how to make linear sense of it all and explain it in a succinct cohesive manner. Don’t bury your head in the sand. Start paying attention. What vocabulary is universally being used? Notice any patterns? So that’s where I have been. Taking my head out of the sand and following the white rabbit. Sometimes the white rabbit rests, but lately, it’s taken me on a fast and furious ride. I’ll be learning about two different things, and then they suddenly share a thread—a piece of vocabulary or an idea.

I’ll write more about it here since this is a digital diary. I do wish I was more intelligent, it pisses me off to not have a stronger memory. Till tomorrow, take care my friends of the interwebs.